It's sufficiently difficult to answer your question(s) so I'll offer a different perspective. Consider this question: are you enjoying your time? If the answer

It's sufficiently difficult to answer your question(s) so I'll offer a different perspective. Consider this question: are you enjoying your time? If the answer is no, are you working towards something that will allow you to enjoy your time? If the answer is still no, then you may want to reconsider what it is that you want.