Thanks for your kind reply. The problems are not that I don't manage to be mindful all those many years helped me and it comes quite naturally. The problem I h

Thanks for your kind reply. The problems are not that I don't manage to be mindful all those many years helped me and it comes quite naturally. The problem I have is with a full time job where I need to stress myself for all those things that don't deserve in 8-9 hours, and if I am mindful and do things from the heart also I feel the cause doesn't deserve the grace. My problem is on the business side: I need a job where I work only 15 hours a week/ 8-10$ hour (this should show that I want to be frugal) and with a mindful friendly business and colleagues. I have medium network skills, medium linux skills, medium programming skills (python/javascript), English and Italian skills and native Romanian speaker skills. TL, DR: What breaks my heart is this, I thought it was obvious from my OP, from my experience finance/business are the greatest obstacle to mindfulness and when CEOs pose as the apex of mindfulness the result is obvious: you need finance/business success to be successful in mindfulness. Which is a very perverse way to subvert it all. P.S. I tried a dropout with half success, but I don't want to scare and set aloof my family again and because of that I want a bare of financial security.