> I suddenly realized how much of a complete weirdo others must see me as and felt shame comparing myself to others in my peer group who, without depression hol

> I suddenly realized how much of a complete weirdo others must see me as and felt shame comparing myself to others in my peer group who, without depression holding them back, have become much more successful. ... It really brought up a feeling of hopelessness, like I wasted my youth and thus will never catch up, or will always been seen as defective in some way. Preach it brother! I feel the same damned way. > I guess when I was depressed I really didn't consider these things or they simply didn't bother me. I revel in my weirdness when my mood is different from others-- they're just polyannas. Makes it harder to make that appt. to get the meds adjusted.