Sorry for the delay. Well, as a matter of fact I am quite positive and one of the things I realized when I was depressed was that I was quite good at hiding it

Sorry for the delay. Well, as a matter of fact I am quite positive and one of the things I realized when I was depressed was that I was quite good at hiding it (until it reached a point when it was no longer possible) from family, friends etc... I think I understand what you say by 'see what I have accomplished' but as you realize, a great part of 'depression' is just the inner feeling of worthlessness of all that one does and one needs someone (some people) to support him. Everybody needs a life apart from what one 'does'. Everybody is worth another person's love, time, respect and support, just because of himself. I do hope you find help. And try to get a good professional also. All the best.