Here's how this read to me: "I've put a huge amount of effort into trying to mediate this dispute and get to the point where people could apologise and get on w

Here's how this read to me: "I've put a huge amount of effort into trying to mediate this dispute and get to the point where people could apologise and get on with their lives. I almost got there but let a couple of retarded drunken ranting emails made me lose my temper so badly I now feel the need to throw away any chance of achieving anything positive in the situation by publishing a retarded sober ranting blog post. Also, I am high as a kite."