I'd vote with the doctors. Sleep a lot and eat well. All your physical symptoms just sound like stress and sleep deprivation. You can ask the doctors for some s

I'd vote with the doctors. Sleep a lot and eat well. All your physical symptoms just sound like stress and sleep deprivation. You can ask the doctors for some stress medication, although I find it makes me just stare out bus windows dully and not sit coding wildly the entire bus ride, for example, so it will hurt your productivity. I don't think you should be so concerned about what other people think or what happens at hackathon and startup events. If you go to an event and code all weekend and are nice to everyone, you profited from the event even if you didn't win. There's always going to be luck involved and there's always going to be people better than you and worse than you. You can't judge yourself by event performance. I feel for you wanting to do the whole startup thing and work on your own projects and quit school and whatnot. But honestly, I think you should just finish school, take an internship, and sock away some money and some experience first. Think of that first job or internship as someone paying you to learn technology that you will use to write your own stuff. Maybe at first you'll just write one commit of your own stuff each night, but later on you can quit if you want to and you are more stable and ready. Don't quit to go learn stuff, though, that's a waste of time. You want to focus on doing stuff and just learn what you need to do what you want. Anyone can waste their whole life learning and reading blogs and not accomplishing something.