You need to discover what is important to you. You say that none of your jobs make you feel your passion, your joy. But you haven't decided what that is. You

You need to discover what is important to you. You say that none of your jobs make you feel your passion, your joy. But you haven't decided what that is. You're looking for happiness, maybe you aren't sure what happiness is. You say you have ideas and goals of starting a company. Why? What kind of company? Starting a (generic) company is not a very focused direction. I think your issue is that you are afraid of choosing the wrong path. Like a Hollywood romance, you're expecting the right path to be self evident, and just feel perfect. This isn't going to happen. My advice is to choose the wrong path. Walk down the wrong path, and while you're doing it, try to work out exactly why it's the wrong path. Make little corrections. It's going to be when you're walking down the wrong path that you learn what is right. When you learn, tend toward what feels right. Don't jump right on to another path, just correct a bit, because if you switch careers you'll lose that context and feel lost again. In the worst case scenario you'll be in a career that you didn't enjoy to start with, but one you've learned to make the best of, and have earned a lot of experience in. In the best case scenario you will have discovered what you were looking for and learned how to get there. Pick something that pays the bills, make the best of it, and try to figure out how you can make yourself a little bit happier there.