I have been there... When I first started college (I'm 25 now) I knew a bit of coding, and done a lot of art related stuff, but I wouldn't consider myself excel

I have been there... When I first started college (I'm 25 now) I knew a bit of coding, and done a lot of art related stuff, but I wouldn't consider myself excellent in either of those practices, so I felt every bit of a failure as you do. Eventually, I figured out that even though I wanted to do things related to art, and related to computers, I was not inclined to go through the path that would lead me to being excellent at either of those those thing. So what I did was force myself to go through it. I did it a day a time, always thinking, "tomorrow it'll be easier, tomorrow it'll be funner". And it eventually got easier and funner. My programming skills started to take off, and let me tell you. After a certain threshold, learning becomes fun, and exciting, and I found that I didn't have to force myself anymore. It seems to me that beginner materials do not really provide people with inspiration. You want to work hard enough until you're starting to touch upon advanced material- that stuff is exciting as hell. At the end of the day, I ended up pursuing computer science as my area of concentration, but it doesn't have to be the same for you. Just pick one: art, technology, business, or whatever, and go for it! Give your all. Don't be scared that you're making a bad decision. It's relatively cheap to make a change after really trying (You can even come back to the other path, and explore that), what is really expensive is keep trying to do things half heartedly. Now, take a deep breath, and in the words of Dory from Finding Nemo, "Just keep swimming". :)