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I thought I had things under control with weed. Gradually I realised I was using it to cope with chronic depression due to an earlier personal tragedy. Weed pr

by today 13y ago

I thought I had things under control with weed. Gradually I realised I was using it to cope with chronic depression due to an earlier personal tragedy. Weed probably is great when things are actually in order in your life, but you may be losing contact with reality precisely because it makes it possible to enjoy yourself the entire time. I think you have to be very mindful of that. It's a painful processes, turning to face life directly, but I feel like I'm managing to do so day by day. Part of this processes involves speaking to a psychiatrist and starting an SNRI prescription. I do plan to smoke weed again, cautiously, once things are "in order". It's funny - when I used to smoke weed, I always felt like I needed to clear my daily todo list before hand. I would take out the trash I should have taken out, put clothes in the laundry, maybe respond to some lingering emails. It was quite productive. Now I'm recapitulating that pattern at a higher level in life. At least, I hope that's what's happening...

makmanalp 13y ago
Thank you for this - I'm always concerned that people miss this. I recall someone I know noticing that they just didn't enjoy smoking anymore, and it was actually making them more anxious. Without going into a discussion about why this happened, it took them a long time to realize this because they were rationalizing their use, and using more to counter the fact that they were feeling "off" after the regular amount. As a non-smoker, it's one of my fears that if this happens again, I won't be able to convince one of my smoking friends that this is happening to them. Mental dependence seems insidious in that way. Any pointers? Experiences to share?
- MarkPNeyer 13y ago
  this experience was mine, too. i really liked it at first, and grew to hate it because i kept doing it even though i didn't want to. reddit.com/r/leaves is a great resource for quitting. if you read the posts there, you'll see that same story over and over and over.
kpennell 13y ago
nice comment

by today 13y ago

makmanalp 13y ago

Thank you for this - I'm always concerned that people miss this. I recall someone I know noticing that they just didn't enjoy smoking anymore, and it was actually making them more anxious. Without going into a discussion about why this happened, it took them a long time to realize this because they were rationalizing their use, and using more to counter the fact that they were feeling "off" after the regular amount. As a non-smoker, it's one of my fears that if this happens again, I won't be able to convince one of my smoking friends that this is happening to them. Mental dependence seems insidious in that way. Any pointers? Experiences to share?

MarkPNeyer 13y ago
this experience was mine, too. i really liked it at first, and grew to hate it because i kept doing it even though i didn't want to. reddit.com/r/leaves is a great resource for quitting. if you read the posts there, you'll see that same story over and over and over.

kpennell 13y ago

nice comment