Hey man, where you are now is where I've been a million times before. I've spent almost a decade trying to properly learn programming, jumping from tutorial to

Hey man, where you are now is where I've been a million times before. I've spent almost a decade trying to properly learn programming, jumping from tutorial to book to language to online course. I'm trying it again, but this time with a different attitude because of a very important life lesson I've learned recently: Every thing, every single thing worth attaining will always require a degree of pain that you can't do anything about but push through. I'd see all these hackers launching startups, side projects, really neat tools, and I'd always think about how much fun they must be having. I never saw the hours and hours of frustration these guys had to endure in the past to develop their skill sets and now to get their products out the door. So I'd go through tutorials and have fun because they were easy and weren't pushing me hard enough. The second I'd hit a wall, and stopped enjoying myself, I'd quit. I had wrongly assumed that the learning process was just always supposed to be fun. That's not the case. So maybe try readjusting your expectations and try again.