> What can I do to make sure I stay productive? This is a horrible question, especially based upon your description. I'm sorry that society has convinced you t

> What can I do to make sure I stay productive? This is a horrible question, especially based upon your description. I'm sorry that society has convinced you that productivity is the most important metric to evaluate. It sounds like productivity is the root of your problem. You need to instead evaluate your humanism. I would recommend going on a long hike (AT, PCT?), find an inclusive group of peers (punks, burners?) and experience life instead of this comfy treadmill you've constructed.