I find that only pretty much any time I see that word on the internet it's never in this respect context. I grew up hearing it all the time and didn't realize i

I find that only pretty much any time I see that word on the internet it's never in this respect context. I grew up hearing it all the time and didn't realize it was a big deal until I realized the vast majority of the time it is still used in a negative context no matter what the spelling.