I feel you When i was about that age. The thrill to chat on irc was so big. I remember coming home from school, looking forward to be on irc all night, only to

I feel you When i was about that age. The thrill to chat on irc was so big. I remember coming home from school, looking forward to be on irc all night, only to find out there was a netsplit on efnet and the channel was taken 'over'. I could be on irc all day, all night, till early morning. I could socialize with the people i met from anywhere, all day, all night, till early morning. I could code, for things i was excited about, all day, all night, till early morning. Then, some years later, i realized. Life hit me. Friends moved on, people changed, things around me changed, responsibility changed, i changed. I still code, love to code, even made a living out of coding. But not like when i was young. I wonder a lot, about what has changed. I could be "ON" all day back then. Now i rarely bother to join, give my opinion or reply immediately. I consume a lot though, reading, thinking. I feel even surprised i am replying on this topic, but it resonates with me very much. Mind you. If one was to ask me. Are you happy, i am. I don't feel depressed. Love a lot of things and don't waste my days. At least, not anymore. I wonder, how do you come home. Feeling energized or mentally exhausted. Is there anything (else) that you are passionate about. Is there anything else that makes you forget about time, except for mind numbing drugs? If you feel you are stuck, try changing your environment. Changing your mind goes along with it. Experiment with your habits, drop some and try some. Enough sleep, a healty diet, exercise and being outside are definitely essential. A different job, new people around you, also worth a try, but harder. More books, less television. Simplify. Your background story is very short though. There are a lot of things to consider when trying to figure out your (own) perceptions, emotions and motivations.