God, this board is strange sometimes. The very idea of having a million dollars and simultaneously complaining about not being rich enough is bizarre to me. B

God, this board is strange sometimes. The very idea of having a million dollars and simultaneously complaining about not being rich enough is bizarre to me. But then, to the OP, I'm probably a crazy person (or worse, below some threshold of being a worthwhile opinion) because my bank accounts' savings are only measured in thousands. Beyond that, if you're still willing to listen to the opinion of a thousandaire, you should talk to a psychologist. You have set yourself some unrealistic goals, and they are apparently torturing you. I think, personally, that you need more socialization outside of a work situation. The world isn't a lie, but you're cutting yourself off from a huge part of it. Go do a bunch of things that involve other people as much as possible, and money as little as possible. But hey, bonus points for me: There's a millionaire out there with my Meyers-Briggs type.