I'm afraid I will never be a software developer. Seriously I am not sure I'll ever be able to make a living developing software. This makes me sad although not

I'm afraid I will never be a software developer. Seriously I am not sure I'll ever be able to make a living developing software. This makes me sad although not that sad, from this realization I just get a "man this sucks" feeling. I'll keep doing what I like until I die, and I like computers. I write code just for fun and because I want to solve my own software needs. I have zero discipline, sometimes I spend weeks with out learning anything about programming, sometimes I am on a learning sprint and I read so much I get sick of it. Right now I am at college studying on a related subject but I don't know if I'll even be manage to pass this semester. I don't really care I am to much of a hedonist, I should be doing homework and here I am slacking in the internet. As I say why worry you'r going to die anyways. If I fail fine, if not even better. Seriously when humans are extinct not even the greatest of us will be remembered. Do what you like and try to be happy, if you can become a great programmer you will, if can't you won't. Whatever can be will be, whatever can't be won't be. Our actions affect our future but there is a limit to what we can hope to accomplish. TLDR. Try your best and stop worrying about the outcome. If you can become a great programmer you will, if can't you won't.