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https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/html/dpr_posts_page_01_start_000.html https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/html/dpr_posts_page_01_... There has been mor

https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/html/dpr_posts_page_01_start_000.html https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/html/dpr_posts_page_01_... There has been more than one occasion where I have wanted to quit as well. Without going into details, the stress of being DPR is sometimes verwhelming. What keeps me going is the understanding that what we are doing here is more important than my insignificant little life. I believe what we are doing will have rippling effects for generations to come and could be part of a monumental shift in how human beings organize and relate to one another. I have gone through the mental exercise of spending a lifetime in prison and of dying for this cause. I have let the fear pass through me and with clarity commit myself fully to the mission and values outlined in the Silk Road charter. If you haven't read it yet, please do.

mikegogulski 13y ago
I spotted that during my analysis of the texts. It's a hell of a thing to say, really. Direct link, with datestamp: https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/messages/20130920-1909-6-Some_thoughts_on_Atlantis_closing.txt https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/messages/20130920-1909-...
pallandt 13y ago
This is very interesting. The language he's using suggests he suffered at least at some point from psychosis in a certain degree, most certainly caused by the level of stress he was experiencing on a daily basis and perhaps even by the potential 'substances' he may have been sampling (pure speculation though). Unfortunately we'll most likely never know if once he starts levelling to a normal state, he starts regretting those planned hits, regardless of whether they actually happened or not. There was some speculation that the person(s) he contracted were actually FBI.
- baddox 13y ago
  What about the language he's using suggests that he suffered from psychosis?
  - pallandt 13y ago
    There are several key words such as 'stress' or 'overwhelming' or wanting to quit but being unable to, but what is often common to persons suffering of delusions of a manic extent (btw, I think they seized some cocaine from him as well if I remember correctly) is believing they are on a special mission to accomplish something world-changing and even expressing intent to sacrifice their lives if it were needed, zealousness, being over-invested emotionally in the 'idea' and perhaps most importantly, the unlikeness of their belief or idea actually manifesting as envisioned. His message is very self-centered and does not mention other people (joining him or helping him reach his goal). It is not unreasonable to think/realize that his belief is/was failing to fit with his socio-cultural background, especially considering he was mostly running the op alone. There were mentions of admins that were paid lowly sums compared to what he was making, I assume they had very limited attributions and he was the only one in true controlling capacity. Throw in the necessity for secretiveness due to the nature of the op, the ensuing distrust and suspicion and it is a safe recipe for psychosis as a result of stress.
    - chrislipa 13y ago
      I don't know ... but I'm not convinced. I looks perfectly congruent with the facts that he's just incredibly passionate about his mission. I don't think it's so unreasonable for DPR to think and hope that he was changing the world for the better.
      - tptacek 13y ago
        Kinda not factoring in the notion that he was ordering people to be killed during this timeframe, right?
        chrislipa 13y ago
        Not ignoring that at all. History is replete with true believers willing to kill and die for their causes.
    - crystaln 13y ago
- ninjac0der 13y ago
  What... the... I thought the non-essential government services were shut down right now.
  - tptacek 13y ago
    The FBI is not shut down right now.
    - jlgreco 13y ago
      I think ninjac0der was insinuating that pallandt is a shill (and that the United States Department of Shilling is a non-essential service.) Ninjac0der can correct me if I interpreted his comment wrong...
      - pallandt 13y ago
        Fortunately/unfortunately, I'm not an U.S citizen, or even resident. I probably wouldn't even be allowed to clean windows for a government agency, let alone work in law enforcement.Btw, I also didn't downvote you.
      - ninjac0der 13y ago
        Yes, and it was a useless comment to be sure. My apologies, I try not to go out in public.
contingencies 13y ago
It continues: The bottom line is... Silk Road is here to stay so long as there is breath in my lungs, a spark in my mind, and fire in my heart. I know many of you in this community feel the same way and is an honor to stand beside you here.

mikegogulski 13y ago

I spotted that during my analysis of the texts. It's a hell of a thing to say, really. Direct link, with datestamp: https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/messages/20130920-1909-6-Some_thoughts_on_Atlantis_closing.txt https://www.rossulbricht.org/srforum/messages/20130920-1909-...

pallandt 13y ago

This is very interesting. The language he's using suggests he suffered at least at some point from psychosis in a certain degree, most certainly caused by the level of stress he was experiencing on a daily basis and perhaps even by the potential 'substances' he may have been sampling (pure speculation though). Unfortunately we'll most likely never know if once he starts levelling to a normal state, he starts regretting those planned hits, regardless of whether they actually happened or not. There was some speculation that the person(s) he contracted were actually FBI.

baddox 13y ago
What about the language he's using suggests that he suffered from psychosis?
- pallandt 13y ago
  There are several key words such as 'stress' or 'overwhelming' or wanting to quit but being unable to, but what is often common to persons suffering of delusions of a manic extent (btw, I think they seized some cocaine from him as well if I remember correctly) is believing they are on a special mission to accomplish something world-changing and even expressing intent to sacrifice their lives if it were needed, zealousness, being over-invested emotionally in the 'idea' and perhaps most importantly, the unlikeness of their belief or idea actually manifesting as envisioned. His message is very self-centered and does not mention other people (joining him or helping him reach his goal). It is not unreasonable to think/realize that his belief is/was failing to fit with his socio-cultural background, especially considering he was mostly running the op alone. There were mentions of admins that were paid lowly sums compared to what he was making, I assume they had very limited attributions and he was the only one in true controlling capacity. Throw in the necessity for secretiveness due to the nature of the op, the ensuing distrust and suspicion and it is a safe recipe for psychosis as a result of stress.
  - chrislipa 13y ago
    I don't know ... but I'm not convinced. I looks perfectly congruent with the facts that he's just incredibly passionate about his mission. I don't think it's so unreasonable for DPR to think and hope that he was changing the world for the better.
    - tptacek 13y ago
      Kinda not factoring in the notion that he was ordering people to be killed during this timeframe, right?
      - chrislipa 13y ago
        Not ignoring that at all. History is replete with true believers willing to kill and die for their causes.
  - crystaln 13y ago
ninjac0der 13y ago
What... the... I thought the non-essential government services were shut down right now.
- tptacek 13y ago
  The FBI is not shut down right now.
  - jlgreco 13y ago
    I think ninjac0der was insinuating that pallandt is a shill (and that the United States Department of Shilling is a non-essential service.) Ninjac0der can correct me if I interpreted his comment wrong...
    - pallandt 13y ago
      Fortunately/unfortunately, I'm not an U.S citizen, or even resident. I probably wouldn't even be allowed to clean windows for a government agency, let alone work in law enforcement.Btw, I also didn't downvote you.
    - ninjac0der 13y ago
      Yes, and it was a useless comment to be sure. My apologies, I try not to go out in public.

contingencies 13y ago

It continues: The bottom line is... Silk Road is here to stay so long as there is breath in my lungs, a spark in my mind, and fire in my heart. I know many of you in this community feel the same way and is an honor to stand beside you here.