Seems like you need a personal project that you would love. Build a blog for your wife. Give a portfolio to a friend that love photography. But first, tell them

Seems like you need a personal project that you would love. Build a blog for your wife. Give a portfolio to a friend that love photography. But first, tell them that you will make it for them. And tell them when. "Hey, Joe, what about I build you a portfolio website for next month?" Or better yet, make it as a birthday present to someone you like. I'm sure you will manage to finish his gift on time.