(in reply to emilsedgh) Because he was trying to find meaning and purpose in his life. What struck me most powerfully was that he did actually discover the mea

(in reply to emilsedgh) Because he was trying to find meaning and purpose in his life. What struck me most powerfully was that he did actually discover the meaning of life (or at least one aspect of it) when he says "happiness only real when shared". So it appears that he did actually figure out how to have a meaningful life, but unfortunately never actually got to put it into practice. That is the saddest part of the whole story for me.