Wow, that's a huge amount of insecurity balled up into a single post. Way to validate the research mate! Sounds like you need to practice letting go / not cari

Wow, that's a huge amount of insecurity balled up into a single post. Way to validate the research mate! Sounds like you need to practice letting go / not caring about your reputation and what other people think, and just be yourself. It may sound trite, but the way you live sounds horrifying!