I outgrew big L Libertarianism as in the specific brand of political ideology that is in keeping with the idea of trying to destroy the current force initiating

I outgrew big L Libertarianism as in the specific brand of political ideology that is in keeping with the idea of trying to destroy the current force initiating political institutions whilst actually attempting to co-opt the mantle of those force initiating political institutions. By way of analogy, so you're in your classically inefficient violently useless modern political nation state and suddenly by some abject miracle, you are granted political power. Fix everything whilst sticking to both authoritarian political guidelines necessary to actually qualify as a government, and the general idea of eradicating authoritarianism due to its inefficiency which got you there in the first place. Although I can totally sympathise with the thinking of classically political libertarians, I think they simply don't follow the observations they make on the nature of the efficiency of force initiating political institutions and free markets through to their logical conclusions. That said, there's another kind of libertarianism too which is the kind that can be directly contrasted with the authoritarianism of modern classical political actors and their bloated nation states. I'm all for that kind of libertarianism, and I think it should be acknowledged by people that aren't that to the extent that they are not libertarian in this sense, they are actually authoritarians and accept all of the uncomfortable inferences that implies about them and their positions.