Hey man, I missed this, but I'm also in BC. I hope you are still following this. First of all, you should really contact professionals or a suicide line. Ther

Hey man, I missed this, but I'm also in BC. I hope you are still following this. First of all, you should really contact professionals or a suicide line. There was a time in my life where I felt exactly the same way as you do. My life was worthless, I'm inherently broken, the same stuff you say to yourself. These thoughts and feelings take a toll on us. I got on the phone with a counselor and I could barely answer any of their questions about what day I should schedule an appointment. You're not broken or less resilient than others. Many people have similar problems. You just can't tell from their public face. A professional is your best bet, but in addition to that - if you just want to hang out and talk about stuff, tech, life, otherwise, contact me anytime. I'm in Vancouver. neilk@neilk.net.