thank you for taking your time to read this post my friends. I wouldn't be surprised if it was him, making that throwaway account just to post a negative commen

thank you for taking your time to read this post my friends. I wouldn't be surprised if it was him, making that throwaway account just to post a negative comment. But anyway, I think I have the need to see a psychiatrist, I've never felt this low/depressed in my life, I'm feeling extremely stressed emotionally and physically. There are a million "what if i have done xxx instead"s going around my head, unstopping feeling of guilt and regrets floating around. I'm afraid I might end up having depression myself. Regarding his unemployment, I tried to show him job posts before, told him companies that I know. But after all, I'm not like him. I'm just another average 20 y/o going through college, I don't nearly have as much connections in the field as he does. Yes loving a suicidal person is frustrating, yet I can't pull myself out of it. I can't even talk about the problems to friends in real life, all because I made a promise to him I won't be telling others his secrets. If any other of you reading this feel that I'm "airing my dirty laundry", I'm sorry for taking up this space, I have nowhere else to go.