I went through all these things when I was around your age. I wrote about as prolifically as you. I used to think we could maximize happiness levels around th

I went through all these things when I was around your age. I wrote about as prolifically as you. I used to think we could maximize happiness levels around the world. You might be interested in a book called The Happiness Hypothesis. I don't really know what to say. You're asking a lot of deep and important questions. Keep reading, keep writing. Broaden the scope of your reading. One thing that helped me a lot was to have somebody more experienced than me to talk about these things with in person, in a kind of student-teacher relationship.