First, I have to say that everything will be ok, believe it. Now, if you haven't had one in years, maybe it's some chemical imbalance, I don't know, but first,

First, I have to say that everything will be ok, believe it. Now, if you haven't had one in years, maybe it's some chemical imbalance, I don't know, but first, you gotta find a psychiatrist like tomorrow, because all it's going to take is "one" run-in with the cops, and it's going to be a mega shit-storm from there on. Hang in there and deal with this as soon as you possibly can. You can get ahold of it right now, everything is still ok.