Sounds like you learned a lot. The only problem here is the lack of shipping—that is what made you feel like a failure. Psychologically it would have been bet

Sounds like you learned a lot. The only problem here is the lack of shipping—that is what made you feel like a failure. Psychologically it would have been better to have finished a crappy v1 then do a rewrite in a new language for v2, but in practice you probably learned an equal amount this way, so cut yourself some slack. And remember, being a perfectionist is a prerequisite for being good at anything. If you aren't self-critical you won't improve, and no one comes out of the gate being good at anything. Obviously that's necessary but not sufficient since many people are disheartened by their early incompetence and give up before they've even really gotten started, but it's not a bad thing.