I feel exactly this way as I am trying to teach myself some more involved statistics. There are moments of clarity but the broad picture is too fuzzy. And there

I feel exactly this way as I am trying to teach myself some more involved statistics. There are moments of clarity but the broad picture is too fuzzy. And there was a time I could get really excited about math - still love the experience of (re)learning it but it seems like several years of formula grinding with the sole intent of passing entrance exams has taken its toll in the worst possible way by diminishing some of the intuition and feel I seemed to have.