I feel for you, but it's not the end yet. There are two important things you can do. 1) Looks like you wrote some cool code, so at least "github" it, so that

I feel for you, but it's not the end yet. There are two important things you can do. 1) Looks like you wrote some cool code, so at least "github" it, so that you have a resume item & some cred when you want just a salary job. 2) Talk to people. They won't understand, but they'll occasionally do something good for you. Maybe a pancake dinner cooked or late night "dinner for losers" on a saturday night. I worked on something for 5 years to drop it completely and move on - was heartbreaking but that CVS repo got me a job and indirectly, paid my bills.