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2. Not only do most fail, they don't generally fail spectacularly. They die, slowly and steadily, in a death march that saps the founders of their confidence an
by failedthrowaway 13y ago
2. Not only do most fail, they don't generally fail spectacularly. They die, slowly and steadily, in a death march that saps the founders of their confidence and has been documented several times to lead to severe depression[1].
My company failed, a long slow death, after 8 years. I was barely able to pay myself during the latter few years, but I had employees and cofounders that I felt obligated towards... and then company debt I needed to work off. While we have shut it down now and I have a full time job, I feel dead inside, and I am having a rough go at being functional. I hide it from my family, and am finding it hard to be productive. I'll just stare at the screen instead of working. I don't know what to do to jump start myself again. I feel so empty and like I am fake. It has been two years. I haven't said this to anyone before now. But I believe you are right about the slow company death, and while I don't believe I am severely depressed, I do feel a bit like Frodo at the end of LoTR, but without a Grey Haven sanctuary to sail off towards.
(Sorry for the rambling and the thread hijack)
- dylangs1030 13y agoThat's rough, I'm sorry. But thank you for sharing. If you ever want to talk to a techie about it, you can email me in confidence.
- failedthrowaway 13y agoThanks
- nagrom 13y ago>>> I feel so empty and like I am fake. It has been two years. I haven't said this to anyone before now. When I last felt like that, I did the same thing. I said nothing to anyone for about 18 months. Eventually, I did talk to someone over a few drinks one night - not someone particularly close to me, just a friend. They didn't say anything profound, they weren't hugely supportive, they didn't offer a new perspective or anything from their own experience. But that outpouring of my feelings was, I recognise now, the first step of the healing process for me - a little like lancing a boil. Kind of silly, but that's the human psyche for you. I can't guarantee that it'll work for you, but it worked for me. Think about trying it?
- failedthrowaway 13y agoThanks, I may try that.
- pressurefree 13y agolol Frodo... i came up with this idea for power but i quickly became overwhelmed so i only told a few people... its more fun watching Elon Musk talk out of his ass about renewable energy... https://sites.google.com/site/verticalwindfarm/ https://sites.google.com/site/verticalwindfarm/ shhh!