She is my childhood sweetheart and we have been through an awful lot together. She has stood by me in times when I didn't even care or stand by myself, when I f

She is my childhood sweetheart and we have been through an awful lot together. She has stood by me in times when I didn't even care or stand by myself, when I felt disgusting and unloved (I suffer from a mood disorder which produced psychotic symptoms at its peak). She was there when even some family refused to be there. To be poetic, my love for her transcends that of anything I'be ever known or witnessed. It seems we are stronger than my parents and her parents and they have been together for around 20 - 25 years each. We are 100% dedicated to each other and the thought if not being with her makes me physically sick.