I am in my early 30s. Do not have much in savings, have a job that takes up much of my time but won't really save me enough. I dô not know what my aim in life i

I am in my early 30s. Do not have much in savings, have a job that takes up much of my time but won't really save me enough. I dô not know what my aim in life is. I have been thinking hard but I can't seem to pick one. I can rule out some, but I can't rule them out completely. Family: I have little interest in starting a family. Where I live, overpopulation is a problem. I don't like driving. There isn't even enough place to park cars. Why does everyone have to buy a car? Money: I have little interest in making a lot of money. Growing up, my family had enough money, but I saw how my parents really didn't have time for much else than making moey. Name, Fame and acceptance: I think about this sometimes. My college peers are apparently well settled. Higher up in the job/salary/business/family heirarchy than I can hope reaching in my lifetime. Makes me sad a little thinking they must be looking down on me, but then I realise that it doesn't realy matter. I wouldn't have been happier if I had made the choices that they did in life and I wouldn't be happy chasing success just because I can have acceptance from my peers. Because all of us are individuals with separate lives. But all in all comparing myself to my peers makes me unhappy transiently, even when I know that I don't hate their success and being happy for them makes me happy. Happiness: Sometimes I can pinpoint what makes me happy. Like when I am working on a hobby application,which turns out better than I expected. Or when I find a smarter way to implment a certain feature. Other times it is not that easy to say what makes me happy. Building something so I can be the next facebook or tumblr doesn't make me happy. Perhaps because I know that it is impossible. A lot of the happiness problems is because of the need for social acceptance. I don't grudge my peers their success, but sometimes you feel the eyes of society scurutinizing you and judging you as a failure and that is what makes me unhappy, but only transiently. Because, I know that what society thinks about me is not that important. For eg. Currently it is important enough for me to be posting anonymously online, but not important enough to make me decide what I want to do in life. But eventually thinking about the meaning of life does not lead to answers. Perhaps it is a difficult thing to understand. Or perhaps everyone else has it right and I am afraid of trying and losing. I understand that the biological reason of life is procreation. But I understand little else. So I generally try to live in the present and try to save some money so I don't become a slave to my current job and eventually hope to be self employed, make enough money, not hurt others and maybe help others a little.