38 is still very young. I am 43 and still working on my start-up. You might want to check out this book: Noble Obsession: Charles Goodyear, Thomas Hancock, and

38 is still very young. I am 43 and still working on my start-up. You might want to check out this book: Noble Obsession: Charles Goodyear, Thomas Hancock, and the Race to Unlock the Greatest Industrial Secret of the 19th Century http://www.amazon.com/Goodyear-Story-Inventors-Obsession-Struggle/dp/1893554821/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1369413754&sr=1-1&keywords=charles+goodyear http://www.amazon.com/Goodyear-Story-Inventors-Obsession-Str... If you compare your situation to Mr. Goodyear, you will find out that you have much more than what he had. I hope this can help you recover from your depression. Just don't give up on your dream.