Well I'm past the point of not wanting to live now, but I still really don't feel much. I feel good when I work out. I can't think about myself without feeling

Well I'm past the point of not wanting to live now, but I still really don't feel much. I feel good when I work out. I can't think about myself without feeling like a failure. Most days I try to start out thinking about positive things I have in life, but then I get to work and those all go away. My wife doesn't think I love her. I do but I just don't get any feeling in general. She caught the grill on fire and everyone else is panicing and I'm just like "whatever" put it out.