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Not just phraseology. The whole attitude expressed in that phrase stinks.

by cema 13y ago

michaelochurch 13y ago
The whole attitude expressed in that phrase stinks. I won't get into details, but I have had way more negative experiences than most people (many having nothing to do with work issues, the main trigger being more than 10 years ago) get and I have a serious, long-standing anger problem. At this point it is a medical fact. I'm not ashamed of it. It's not me, and I do everything I can to manage it. It's the residue of things that have happened in the past. Anyway, I don't give the square root of a shit about the past. Fuck the past. The past is where losers live, who care about social proof and their imbecilic reputation economies because they're weak human garbage with no vision. I care about the future. The past sucks. It is dead and let it be dead. It's gone because it didn't deserve to live, and because something still-very-flawed-but-just-slightly-better (the present) replaced it. If I have "attitude", it's because we as technologists have a very weak tribal integrity, which allows these "popular kids" who have credibility (read, the ability to fuck up our lives through bad references and professional extortion) to divide and conquer and ultimately abuse us. If I am errant, it is because I am over-correcting for generations of cowardice and submission.
- cema 13y ago
  I have a serious, long-standing anger problem It may interfere with your ability to express yourself clearly, but don't you think it may also cloud your judgement?
  - michaelochurch 13y ago
    In the short term, it has that effect, which explains some bad decisions I've made. Anger has a weird property of clouding short- and long-term judgment but clarifying a certain medium-term precision.
    - cema 13y ago
      If I understood you correctly, I abandoned any attempts to medically (or psychologically) cure yourself of this problem? Do you think it is not curable? I am not sure how many people here have the same problem, anger appears to be less prevalent than depression, but in case there are more people suffering from the condition, or people who do not realize they have it, perhaps you could do a writeup of your experience with it? It could be helpful.
      - michaelochurch 13y ago
        I work on it, but overnight cures do not exist for this kind of thing.
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Not just phraseology. The whole attitude expressed in that phrase stinks.

by cema 13y ago

Not just phraseology. The whole attitude expressed in that phrase stinks.

The whole attitude expressed in that phrase stinks. I won't get into details, but I have had way more negative experiences than most people (many having nothing to do with work issues, the main trigger being more than 10 years ago) get and I have a serious, long-standing anger problem. At this point it is a medical fact. I'm not ashamed of it. It's not me, and I do everything I can to manage it. It's the residue of things that have happened in the past. Anyway, I don't give the square root of a shit about the past. Fuck the past. The past is where losers live, who care about social proof and their imbecilic reputation economies because they're weak human garbage with no vision. I care about the future. The past sucks. It is dead and let it be dead. It's gone because it didn't deserve to live, and because something still-very-flawed-but-just-slightly-better (the present) replaced it. If I have "attitude", it's because we as technologists have a very weak tribal integrity, which allows these "popular kids" who have credibility (read, the ability to fuck up our lives through bad references and professional extortion) to divide and conquer and ultimately abuse us. If I am errant, it is because I am over-correcting for generations of cowardice and submission.

cema 13y ago
I have a serious, long-standing anger problem It may interfere with your ability to express yourself clearly, but don't you think it may also cloud your judgement?
- michaelochurch 13y ago
  In the short term, it has that effect, which explains some bad decisions I've made. Anger has a weird property of clouding short- and long-term judgment but clarifying a certain medium-term precision.
  - cema 13y ago
    If I understood you correctly, I abandoned any attempts to medically (or psychologically) cure yourself of this problem? Do you think it is not curable? I am not sure how many people here have the same problem, anger appears to be less prevalent than depression, but in case there are more people suffering from the condition, or people who do not realize they have it, perhaps you could do a writeup of your experience with it? It could be helpful.
    - michaelochurch 13y ago
      I work on it, but overnight cures do not exist for this kind of thing.
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