Right; the author seems to be blaming the luxuries he skipped out on in the past for the lack of gratification he feels today, but what good would faint memorie

Right; the author seems to be blaming the luxuries he skipped out on in the past for the lack of gratification he feels today, but what good would faint memories of him getting drunk with strangers do him today? It's easy to lose sight of just how nice and full of opportunities your life is as a well-off modern-day human.