You done good. It's not supposed to be easy. You get an A for effort, and next time when you place your 120% into something you'll thank your younger self for

You done good. It's not supposed to be easy. You get an A for effort, and next time when you place your 120% into something you'll thank your younger self for getting the early learning phase out of the way when you were young and had unlimited energy. Do take a break. A year sounds about right.