Maybe grad school? Vacation? Learn the clarinet? It sounds like you definitely need some kind of escape from your job. I highly, highly recommend seeing a ther

Maybe grad school? Vacation? Learn the clarinet? It sounds like you definitely need some kind of escape from your job. I highly, highly recommend seeing a therapist if not a psychiatrist. Your health insurance may cover that. If not, then what you're paying now for drugs you should try spending on a therapist one week, or whatever. At least give one a shot, it's amazing how much of your depression is in your head and can be resolved by working it out with a professional. And actual depression medication may also help when the therapy doesn't, and it will almost certainly work more consistently for you than weed. I won't say give up the stuff as it does seem to legitimately work for some people, but it also has bad effects that are easy to overlook when depressed because it's more of the same when you're not actively high: lack of energy, lack of motivation, lack of appetite. It's pretty nasty if you're unaware of it, and it doesn't mean you can't smoke again if you can figure out how to address those issues. But you should face this specific problem with as clear a head as you can manage. But seriously, you are more important than your startup. Don't ever convince yourself otherwise, if Zuckerberg were feeling this shitty and I knew that facebook would blow up I would tell him the same thing. If you aren't making enough money at this place to pay for a therapist you might as well make that money doing something more relaxing, especially if you have this love/hate relationship with your startup; you can't be working at your potential if this is the case. Anyway, if you're in a place now where you realize that there's a problem AND you're motivated enough to do something about it by posting here, then you're in a place where you have the power to address it before it really nails you later. It's not going to go away if you don't change anything. If you need anything, feel free to give me an email or give me a call.