I can't help but going on a rant here. Honestly, people can't face themselves. I understand that her past wasn't exactly a glorious one and I'm grateful for her

I can't help but going on a rant here. Honestly, people can't face themselves. I understand that her past wasn't exactly a glorious one and I'm grateful for her that she has made it through. However, her heart is still fragile, she lies to herself constantly. This rant isn't to her in specific, it's to people. In general, people just aren't willing to face deep down how their heart truly thinks. No matter how disgusting, weird, noble, or sensitive your heart will be, let that thought out and if you understand it's not socially acceptable or just it will invade into other people's comfort zone, then think about how to combat it with your rational mind. Don't just glorify yourself and cover up your inner thoughts with other seemingly heroic reasons attributes to yourself. If you like money, then just tell yourself that you like money and don't say you have to make money to sustain girlfriend's lifestyle. If you hate talking to people then just tell yourself that you hate talking to people and that you may be considered to be 'socially awkward' in the society instead of saying you are just tired. Once you can bring your true heart to yourself, you can find ways to combat it and bring yourself to true happiness. Be sincere and talk to others about them. However, hiding all your true emotions and fragile self just isn't recipe for achieving ultimate happiness in life.