Thanks for posting this, OP. I'm saving this to read in detail later because we share much of the same frustrations (though I would never call myself a loser).

Thanks for posting this, OP. I'm saving this to read in detail later because we share much of the same frustrations (though I would never call myself a loser). I reached the same epiphany a few times, but have always been too comfortable in my situation at the time to make the necessary change. Last summer, while recovering from a motorcycle accident and working in a well-paying but soul-sucking job, I made a few do-or-die decisions. Since then, I've started grad school for Software Engineering and I'm on the job market, hoping to pull in a career, rather than just another paycheck. I've still got the same habits that have held me back from getting my ideas made tangible, but I'm learning the tools that I need to turn that around.