The dichotomy blows my mind. You should be proud of your career and the impact you've made. If you've done anything worth being proud of, then it's likely that

The dichotomy blows my mind. You should be proud of your career and the impact you've made. If you've done anything worth being proud of, then it's likely that some people will hate your guts and want to sabotage you-- and powerful people are more likely than average to dislike you. A roulette game in one's career (back-channel references) that one didn't ask for is undesirable to anyone.