A quote from "Coders at Work" - one that I read every time I feel scared or not "good enough". Seibel: And you very briefly went to CMU after you finished high

A quote from "Coders at Work" - one that I read every time I feel scared or not "good enough". Seibel: And you very briefly went to CMU after you finished high school. Zawinski: Yeah. What happened was, I hated high school. It was the worst time of my life. And when I was about to graduate I asked Fahlman if he’d hire me full-time and he said, “No, but I’ve got these friends who’ve got a startup; go talk to them.” Which was Expert Technologies—ETI. I guess he was on their board. They were making this expert system to automatically paginate the yellow pages. They were using Lisp and I knew a couple of the people already who had been in Fahlman’s group. They hired me and that was all going fine, and then about a year later I panicked: Oh my god, I completely lucked into both of these jobs; this is never going to happen again. Once I no longer work here I’m going to be flipping burgers if I don’t have a college degree, so what I ought to do is go get one of those. The plan was that I’d be working part-time at ETI and then I’d be going to school part time. That turned into working full-time and going to school full-time and that lasted, I think, six weeks. Maybe it was nine weeks. I know it lasted long enough that I’d missed the add/drop period, so I didn’t get any of my money back. But not long enough that I actually got any grades. So it’s questionable whether I actually went. It was just awful. When you’re in high school, everyone tells you, “There’s a lot of repetitive bullshit and standardized tests; it’ll all be better once you’re in college.” And then you get to your first year of college and they’re like, “Oh, no—it gets better when you’re in grad school.” So it’s just same shit, different day—I couldn’t take it. Getting up at eight in the morning, memorizing things. They wouldn’t let me opt out of this class called Introduction to Facilities where they teach you how to use a mouse. I was like, “I’ve been working at this university for a year and a half—I know how to use a mouse.” No way out of it—“It’s policy.” All kinds of stuff like that. I couldn’t take it. So I dropped out. And I’m glad I did. Then I worked at ETI for four years or so until the company started evaporating. We were using TI Explorer Lisp machines at ETI so I spent a lot of my time, besides actually working on the expert system, just sort of messing around with user-interface stuff and learning how those machines worked from the bottom up. I loved them—I loved digging around in the operating system and just figuring out how it all fit together. I’d written a bunch of code and there was some newsgroup where I posted that I was looking for a job and, oh, by the way, here’s a bunch of code. Peter Norvig saw it and scheduled an interview. My girlfriend at the time had moved out here to go to UC Berkeley, so I followed her out.