Slow down a bit there. Whatever is happening, you need to slow down. Don't make any quick decisions. I know you may feel under a lot of pressure. Best way is to

Slow down a bit there. Whatever is happening, you need to slow down. Don't make any quick decisions. I know you may feel under a lot of pressure. Best way is to talk to someone you know and trust. A family member or a very old friend. These people love you and want the best for you. Contact them, and explain what is happening. Then with their company, analyze the situation. I want you to do this. Your current position may make it not so simple. But you must slow down and regain your composure. Such situations are better dealt with people who love you. Postpone any harsh decision until you have met with a loved one and have explained the items. Remember that there is always a way to work things out. Dont lose hope. I want you to remember that things get better. They improve. You just need to slow down and reason a bit. I'm not doubting your points. But I want you to go to a safe place where you can get some rest. Tomorrow you may be able to think about this with a better understanding. You are a smart person. You always figure out hard problems. You need to rest a bit before you can tackle it. Go and stay with a loved one. They will welcome you and listen to the items you are talking about. I am orangethirty. Have been programming for a long time. I live in the Caribbean, and you can read more about me on my github (github.com/orangethirty). I'm only interested in your well being. We all want for you to regain your inner peace. If you need anything, then let me know by posting here. If you feel comfortable emailing me, then do so.I am not pressuring you to do so. Do it if you feel like it. I want you to remember that tomorrow is another day. Things improve. There is a way to solve every problem. - orangethirty