I could have written the original post word for word, and I enjoyed your post. However, what torments me personally is the knowledge that the outcome could hav

I could have written the original post word for word, and I enjoyed your post. However, what torments me personally is the knowledge that the outcome could have been very different had small things been very different. A few freak twists of fate don't happen, I give a little more thought to decisions that turned out to be huge mistakes, etc.