I remember experiencing very similar emotions, everything I loved had become unenjoyable, feeling like a chore, I felt like there wasn't a single person on the

I remember experiencing very similar emotions, everything I loved had become unenjoyable, feeling like a chore, I felt like there wasn't a single person on the planet who would even miss me when I was gone. I took a different direction completely. I became enraged at all the people in my life who led me to thinking this way, who destroyed my passion for what I loved, for taking it away from me, and making me feel so obligated to them, while getting nothing in return. I rejected the thought of no future and mentally put myself in a new one. I became a recluse and shut everyone out of my life, and then I moved to another state 600 miles away. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving, except my parents, I told them I was taking a vacation, just so they wouldn't file a missing persons report, but honestly, it would have taken them weeks to realize I was gone, that's how little we talked. I have a better relationship with my parents now, but that's probably because of the distance. We only talk every few months, and they know if they attempt to assert any control over my life I would have no problem cutting off contact with them. I don't talk to my siblings, and I haven't contacted anyone else from my past since. Whether I'm missed by anyone aside from my immediate family. I doubt it, and I don't care either. The experience was liberating to me. I live for myself and don't allow baseless obligations to dictate any decisions I make. I don't allow my decisions to be dictated by how others will judge me.