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For me, reason has been a wonderful tool in continually circling me back to suicidal ideations. The worst part is when people who are not as strong as I am in l

For me, reason has been a wonderful tool in continually circling me back to suicidal ideations. The worst part is when people who are not as strong as I am in logic and philosophy try to reason with me; usually they end up reluctantly agreeing, or worse, refusing to concede but obstinately arguing because they can't own up to it. As of now, the most effective preventative measure for me has been focus. If I apply myself to thinking about something else, the problem goes away.

fusiongyro 14y ago
Based on the other article it sounds like you're not coping at all, but rather at step 5 of 6: "What this cognitive shift to concrete thinking reflects, suggests Baumeister, is the brain’s attempt to slip into idle mental labor, thereby avoiding the suffocating feelings that we’ve been describing. Many suicidal college students, for example, exhibit a behavioral pattern of burying themselves in dull, routine academic busywork in the weeks beforehand, presumably to enter a sort of 'emotional deadness' which is 'an end in itself.' When I was a suicidal adolescent, I remember reading voraciously during this time; it didn’t matter what it was that I read—mostly junk novels, in fact—since it was only to replace my own thoughts with those of the writer’s. For the suicidal, other people’s words can be pulled over one’s exhausting ruminations like a seamless glove being stretched over a distractingly scarred hand." http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/bering-in-mind/2010/10/20/being-suicidal-what-it-feels-like-to-want-to-kill-yourself/ http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/bering-in-mind/2010/10/2...
- saraid216 14y ago
  Yes, I am. Whether or not I'm at step 6 is open for debate. Amongst people outside of my metaphorical earshot, preferably.
  - fusiongyro 14y ago
    Yes you are… coping or suicidal?

fusiongyro 14y ago

Based on the other article it sounds like you're not coping at all, but rather at step 5 of 6: "What this cognitive shift to concrete thinking reflects, suggests Baumeister, is the brain’s attempt to slip into idle mental labor, thereby avoiding the suffocating feelings that we’ve been describing. Many suicidal college students, for example, exhibit a behavioral pattern of burying themselves in dull, routine academic busywork in the weeks beforehand, presumably to enter a sort of 'emotional deadness' which is 'an end in itself.' When I was a suicidal adolescent, I remember reading voraciously during this time; it didn’t matter what it was that I read—mostly junk novels, in fact—since it was only to replace my own thoughts with those of the writer’s. For the suicidal, other people’s words can be pulled over one’s exhausting ruminations like a seamless glove being stretched over a distractingly scarred hand." http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/bering-in-mind/2010/10/20/being-suicidal-what-it-feels-like-to-want-to-kill-yourself/ http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/bering-in-mind/2010/10/2...

saraid216 14y ago
Yes, I am. Whether or not I'm at step 6 is open for debate. Amongst people outside of my metaphorical earshot, preferably.
- fusiongyro 14y ago
  Yes you are… coping or suicidal?