I remembered I read somewhere in a blog post in HN, that one of the most important things is have friends, and friends that can lift you instead of bring you do

I remembered I read somewhere in a blog post in HN, that one of the most important things is have friends, and friends that can lift you instead of bring you down. I have some friends, but usually I am the leading one in everything, it is a lonely and tiring position, where I don't have people to aspire to be like them, or to admire, or to ask advice, people come to me to ask advice and learn, but I have noone to do that, people come to me wanting to do what I do, but I have noone to do what they do... It is kinda bad. For a long time I ignored this, until I had for some short time a girlfriend that was way above me in social class, it was a totally different world, and it was the time that I mostly advanced in several areas, even talking with only her (I never met anyone she knew), I had to raise the bar in many areas, learn a lot, behave better, learn better, and so on, it is when I noticed that I had a loooong way to go, and when I am at the top, there are no perspective to know what way I should go, thus I need to be friends with other people, people that make me be on the bottom again, so I can follow them until I am equal to them. I think this much explains my motivations right now...