I've been practicing psychonautics and freeganism. The problem is, and I believe this applies to equally Buddhism: _Why should we have to go this far?_ I canno

I've been practicing psychonautics and freeganism. The problem is, and I believe this applies to equally Buddhism: _Why should we have to go this far?_ I cannot have a polite conversation about psychonautics with most everyone, but if not for the research done into this field, I'd still be suffering from terrible pain and misery. Most people will not understand mysticism. Telling someone "try mysticism" is about as helpful as "get a job." Hackers being "high risk" makes sense: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0XK9yMAxPk http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0XK9yMAxPk, and I think that applies here more so than some philosophical system. I myself have been royally blasted by our industrial-capitalist complex. Jail, abusive/manipulative family, poor, mother ridden with terminal illness and hospital bills, and quite honestly -- "African American"; even now I no longer can define myself as this term, preferring the term "elf." But even this offsets me socially. The things we have to do to attain happiness and integrity of identity in this country installs a sense of guilt and engenders neurosis. Even to today I have had to swallow racial slurs and comments, just to fit into a cultural system of computer scientists/programmers. I am constantly seeing how rigid and inorganic this ethnic group is; and it is somewhat terrifying. (All I can really defend this point with is: _Have you had to deal with racism on a daily basis? If you cannot say 'yes,' then I cannot truly explain this problem to you. It's similar to the points Colin Powell makes when he recants the GOP: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQ8ZWWceTL0 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQ8ZWWceTL0 -- his points really just set the stage for just how systematically impoverished our country is ethnically). Often it is simply unfair, and the system is constructed to where one cannot appeal to the sympathies of the majority of the population. Most denizens are prepared to employ defensive tactics like "but at least you can vote!" or "at least you're not in the Congo!", etc. It's simply unhelpful to the dialogue here.