what has kept you going all this time? Please reach out to someone, you trust be it a friend or love one. My family just lost someone to suicide and our lives

what has kept you going all this time? Please reach out to someone, you trust be it a friend or love one. My family just lost someone to suicide and our lives have been forever scarred. If we had known we would have done whatever we could to help that person. Is there something we can do? Do you feel comfortable to disclose who you are and where you are?