> This is a crazy thing to notice after having been alive so many years — that your existence itself is so much to bear. Alternative interpretation: my existen

> This is a crazy thing to notice after having been alive so many years — that your existence itself is so much to bear. Alternative interpretation: my existence is not about sitting there, getting mouldy on the sofa. It never crosses my mind that I should feel unrest because I can't / don't want to just sit there and do nothing, nor does it feel like a revelation to think about it. Maybe it also says something about you if this is something you worry about on some deep level.