If you are somewhat humble (that is critical) and willing to at least consider anecdote, speculation and desperate corridors, perhaps arrange a way for contact

If you are somewhat humble (that is critical) and willing to at least consider anecdote, speculation and desperate corridors, perhaps arrange a way for contact that does not open any vector here. I wouldn't dare tell you that I have anything of certain value to your case, but I know my own track record, and concern for others, so here I be. Otherwise, I advise brutal meditation, internal visualization, relentless focus that does its best to home in on the core etymology. Sometimes we are slightly more clever than we ever realize or employ, and the neglected factors of ourselves are up to more than we see. Squeeze yourself for the answer, and if you get only clues, it's a clue more than complete confusion. The fight for survival can get intense. Be well, and I wish you good healing. ~ Aria Heap