This is beautiful writing. Control is an illusion of the self deceiving. Instead consider tenacity of will. Being stubborn, obstinate, and single minded is a

This is beautiful writing. Control is an illusion of the self deceiving. Instead consider tenacity of will. Being stubborn, obstinate, and single minded is a curse and a blessing. Will is not a magical amulet that one wants freed, it is a determination of resolve that purifies itself only through crushing incendiary relentlessness.